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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Tuesday, 17 October 1972
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 2.47 am. Prepare to invoke Geni of Carcer of ט.
Invocation started 2.55 am. Smoke grass Arabic.
First "thought": cook on a gentle fire. Best will power not violent; smooth.
Second "thought":[1] There is a relation between 33[2] and XI. I feared this was obsession; banished it. But it returned under several forms to "prove" itself.[3] It is a matter of "two souls in one flesh". Also, the symbol as it stands means the existence of any single being. That is, the Union of BABALON and THE BEAST is at the core of the existence of every living being—at least of our species.[4] Egyptian Magick emphatically both forms of love.[5] But the man must accept Θελμηα.[6] And the woman—for success—must be totally dedicated.[7] Also, it is better if both the man and the woman be dead.[8]
In one sense, this means the man should practice heterosexuality—13 being Feminine, as I have already discovered.
Speculation: perhaps the woman should normally be a Lesbian? . . .[9]
Finish 3.34 am.
1—It is probably impossible to describe to the inexperienced the difference between such "thoughts"—which are Buddhic in origin, or, if you prefer, Neschamic—and normal "thoughts", which abound and criss-cross in the untrained Ruach. The performance of Liber XVI is one valuable method of becoming able to perceive the distinction. In this, the final test is not, necessarily, "practical success". For instance, Einstein developed the theory of the atomic bomb, but he had no personal involvement in the actual development of the device. This, of course, does not diminish his personal responsibility for what happened to Hiroshima and Nagasaki. 2—The number of the Seer's Motto in the Outer Order of the A∴A∴, which was suggested to him by his Instructor [Karl Germer] (the number, not the Motto). This number has, of course, an enormous amount of magickal and mystical connotations—not the least in Masonry. It was, indeed, the only connection between Osirian masonic organizations and the true Current of Spiritual Masonry, called the "Seventh Ray" by some systems. 3—Meaning, the "thought" returned under the clothing of several previously learned magickal and mystical 'gestalts' in order to establish its harmony and integration with the Seer's previous experience, even in his "failures": just as sometimes a chemist perceives the right formula from the accumulation of his past false attempts at production of a specific reaction through wrong combinations, or wrong proportions, of a number of substances. 4—This is a corollary of the assertion that the Union of Nuit and Hadit stands behind the formation of any single monad—Babalon and The Beast, of course, being mere reflections of the Ultimate Female and the Ultimate Male (and vice-versa! . . .) Themselves. In a sense, this is a rebuff of all false compassion towards "lower" forms of life. There are no "lower" forms of life; intrinsically, the only difference between the highest initiate and the lowest microorganism is a matter of harmonic growth on multiple levels of awareness—or polydimensional evolution. This is added support to the "ethics" of AL, specially Chapter Two. 5—That is, the "dove" and the "serpent". 6—Yes, but testing this acceptance is the trick! 7—Yes, tricky to test—and several years, sometimes a whole lifetime, is necessary in either case. A.C. [Aleister Crowley] for instance was not sure of Karl Germer's loyalty when He named him his successor in the O.T.O.—only "reasonably" sure! Germer, on his turn, tested Grady McMurtry's loyalties for decades, and never really believed in him. Sadly, this skepticism became justified by McMurtry's behavior, both in the years before Germer's death and after. 8—Yes, but as every chile knows, the only way to test whether an "annimil" is dead is to prod it repeatedly, preferably at long intervals. If it doesn't react, it probably is dead. Of course, you can wait until it actually starts decomposing—but usually the chile is not interested at this stage, since, after all, it (the chile) is either food or play. Only Maut the Vulture (some say also Anubis and some others) is interested in that stage, as a rule! . . . 9—These "speculations" cannot be commented upon, since they bear not only on the IX° O.T.O. but also on the XI° O.T.O. They are treated at length in the mysterious "Book M", that is "Liber Mysteriorum", to which very few have access, and which even fewer profit from studying!
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