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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Saturday, 10 April 1971
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
10.55 pm: Start invocation of Geni of Carcer of כ.
The worship of H-R-H is the creation of a personal demon; it happens within one's own sphere, for He is not there: the Abomination of Desolation (this seems connected with the "angels" that said that "Jesus" was not in his tomb—or rather, his corpse was not in his tomb). And the demon created is Ra-Hoor-Khuit. But because the operation is the creation of a demon, one must be careful. (But He takes care Himself.[1]) And somehow, Ra-Hoor is connected with Jupiter.[2] "I am the visible object of worship." (And it came to me that this is Hoor replacing Amon-Ra.)
"And it shall be suddenly easy for thee to do this." It won't be He. He is neither hindering nor helping; there is no grace; there is no guilt. Simply, when the time comes, it shall suddenly be easy. (This, of course, is the "when the candidate is ready," and "the soul must call Adonai". It occurred to me that it is my personal Wheel that must be put in movement first. Then, His shall touch mine.[3]) Also, that since there is no salvation, the whole operation must be otherwise interpreted (which does not touch on the fact the Liber AL was written. . . .).[4]
Why this connection between AL, Liber XLIV, and The Wheel? Also, without Her approval I cannot pas (the intimation came very clear, but connected with some rite I now don't remember). I was trying to establish he connection between this "silly" (so I thought then) idea and the writings of A.C. [Aleister Crowley] and suddenly it came: She is the Guardian of the Abyss (but there is no Abyss, remember?). In any case, to continue, without Her mercy I cannot pass, for I need blood from the season of the moon. (And now it occurred to me that of course 10 must pass through 7 in order to reach 4. But all this is false.[5] What matters is the connection with AL and Θελημα and now it occurs to me, this is the effect of Karma—action. For when you reach the plane of the Feather of Jupiter, there is no "will" in the intellectual sense, and therefore the "momentum"—conditioning of acquired reflex—is what matters. One does things, or tends to feel things, for no reason at all, except that one has established the necessary channels in one's self".
Yet, in a sense it shall be He who maketh it easy, for He represents (Jupiter—Liber Thoth) the element of luck—the incalculable factor.
But, since luck is incalculable, one must be careful to take all the necessary precautions. And when it happens, it will still have been luck.
(Deleted.)
Note: Subdivisions of the Sephiroth may
be invoke by combining Hexagram and letters.
1—Cf. AL i 52. 3—In His own good time, of course, which may not even occur in one's present incarnation! But one must keep trying. 4—Essentially, the "mercy of the Masters", or Secret Chiefs, or, if you prefer, of God (and even of 'Jesus') is a fact; but They are not about to hand you freedom, or salvation, or wisdom, or however you may define your aspiration, on a platter. It is unworthy of the true Initiator to distribute fish among the hungry: they should be taught to fish for themselves. It is here (as in everything!) a matter of point of view. "Choose ye well!" 5—Meaning, of secondary import; NOT OF THE ESSENCE of the problem.
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and כ,
for example, is Hod of Jupiter. (or Jupiter of Hod? Silly:
there is no Jupiter in Hod!) And since I banished Jupiter
afterwards, I banished Hod of Jupiter as well. If
formula right!