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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Sunday, 18 October 1970
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About "11.35" pm (a little after 0h, in fact); Prepare to invoke Geni of Dome of ת.a[1]
About "11.40" pm (of the 17th—illusorily) start. "11.56" pm: finish. On starting, long corridor, at the end of which dark rocky closed door. Did Av.[erted] Pent.[agram] (Wrong: Inv.[erted]), as a result of which door seemed to recede. Av. Pent. Inv. again; also, think I assumed shape of Sebek. Door opened. Went through. Gigantic Goat Face before me. Remembered words from LXV. Started going down—seemed to be along the inside of a curving horn. Felt bewildered. Started again, invoked Geni again. A cloudy horizon, and above it a hooded Hermit face (like in A.C.'s [Aleister Crowley] TARO) formed. I grew small before figure. Then I think I reacted and said B... O... Then I invoked again, inclusive B-A-H, whose Seal I understood better (deleted). Then the thought came to me that I should ponder the previous Vision of the Geni, and any intimations of his name. So I closed the Vision, and than had a sensation that the Seal was "asking" to be anointed. So I anointed it, and pronounced the Banishing Words B... O... on it, and the corresponding verse of AL (in English and Portuguese) in spite of preliminary reluctance ("It isn't necessary" was the reluctance, it seems). My breath seemed not very good, but at least the words were pronounced.
Note: All done with ring on left ring finger. At beginning, this seemed to make "me" (not the Geni, I believe!) uncomfortable. But went on anyway, and forgot it.
I see now I never analyzed the Number of the Geni! Will do so now.
(Omitted.)
1—Again! . . . It must be explained that the Seer has always been under the firm conviction that 666 is his Holy Guardian Angel; he was encouraged in this conviction even by his own Instructor [Karl Germer]. Nor was the H.G.A. of his Instructor A.C. [Aleister Crowley], but Someone else. (Again, according to his own Instructor.) Confusion must not rise due to the fact that it appears, so often, from references in this Record, that NUIT, and not A.C., or even 666, is accepted by the Seer as His H.G.A. But it should be firmly understood by any Thelemic aspirants, of both sexes (or all sexes!), that the Holy Guardian Angel is a Spiritual Being, not a mortal creature (at least, in the sense in which we perceive the phenomenon of mortality). To put it in simpler terms, the Lord (or Lady! . . .) manifests to the mind of he or she or it who loves Him or Her according to the capacity of the loving mind. "To the pure, all things are pure"; then think not that Adonai would not manifest to a mind that loves filth, should the love be pure enough! Cf. LXV i 54; LXV iii 29-33. The Key—now as always—is: "Inflame thyself with prayer."
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