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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Saturday, 12 September 1970
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 9.44 pm L.T. [Local Time], start preparations to invoke Geni of Dome of ת.
About 9.52 pm: start. About 10.08 pm: finish. At start, long dark corridor—velvety. What seemed like a beautiful landscape far away turned into a blue lake, then into other things I don't recall, finally the Earth, gyrating in starry space. First it came close, then receded. Then it seemed to acquire wings—I realized it was Saturn. Then I wondered why one should go to the centre—the Sun—through Saturn, and realized it was because Saturn was once considered the outermost sentinel. And the thought came to me that in the human body everything must come to the surface before it goes to the centre. And I realized that is why the M.T. [Magister Templi] has to go outwards. He must go outwards because that is the way in. Also, that touching a woman is a test. I have liked the touch of certain girls—that is a sign. The same girl may not feel the same in another occasion—"her time" has passed, as far as my Going is concerned. Also, I realized that this Geni unites I and O—the Line and the Circle. Also, I called the Mantra, and realized R-H-K is not the H.G.A. (at least for me. My H.G.A. is She[1]). And I called the Mantra of the Secret Word. At this, the stars were covered by a Coal Sack, and I was afraid. And then I realized this was the Mantle of Her Darkness. In that, She is most fully alive.[2] She is in congress with Me. (There is an interchange here, of course.) At last, being of the opinion I had made contact, I anointed the Seal and banished the Vision—my last thought being that I must touch girls—or women—to make sure of the Magick Force between us.
1—This is not to be interpreted generally, and the Seer was aware of its relativity even at the time of writing. Cf. LXV, i, 28 and many other passages. The Angel always manifests Himself-Herself-Itself as may be necessary to His-Her-Its client. 2—This interpretation of the "coal sack" phenomenon is not necessarily of astronomical validity.
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