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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Sunday, 1 February 1970[1]
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 2.15 am. Hot night, hard to sleep. After Inv.[ocation] of Spirit,[2] prepare to Inv. Geni of Carcer of ר.
About 2.16 am: Start. About 2.32 am: Stop. About 2.31 am (by the clock), Seal fell from my head onto my left shoulder.
Starting through the door, dark tunnel. It tended to turn left; returned to learn the appropriate Pentagrams and Hexagrams.[3] Starting again, when tunnel started to turn left, did Banishing Pentagram of Earth, then Inv. Pentagram of Earth. It became straight, and a thought occurred to me then which I have now, unfortunately, forgot.[4]
There was a suggestion of greenery in the tunnel. Also, when it started twisting, I saw it was the Snake Ananta, and I was inside it.
The place I got to was dark, and it occurred to me that there is a relation between this Qliphah and the Waning Moon. It came to me that the senses upon which we may rely there (or here! . . .) are taste, touch and smell. Also, it came to me that the form of the Geni's Sigil indicates a relation between the operation of Daleth and the Hanged Man. After all, the Scaffold is a Daleth in shape. Also, the light is shed by the uniting of the Yin with the Yang.
There is reverence due in this place: it is the Chapel of Abomination, of course; but this is because it is dark. Those who are born here are naturally feared: they change things.
Also, it came to me that Woman is most important to man. For the Phallus to worship itself is masturbation: development is possible only through the Kteis, the Vesica. Also, this is the way of AUD, curiously enough. Apparently, intercourse between men produces not AUD, but AUB? This may be studied later. Or is AUB merely the uncontrolled light? I doubt it: both serpents are entwined around the Caduceus, harmoniously.
Also. as I went on, I came to a Dark Pylon, which was fitting, since Daleth means Door, and this is the Geni of the Carcer, which is naturally dark. I went in, and after much going a shape formed which I tried to distinguish. A word came to me, the name George.[4] And I realized this was the maw of the Dragon, and my will the Lance thrust into it. And I remembered that Nuit is the Dragon, and it came to me that the image of "Saint George" is a sexual symbol. The Black Dragon of the Alchemists is She. . . .
And I came back, having perceived that if I stayed I would learn many other wonderful things. As I took the form of H-p-k to return, my aura assumed a dark brown—chocolate—color (Beetle color?). At this moment, the Seal fell from my head onto my right shoulder.
I shall now anoint it.
Done. Comment: Beetle brown? There is a natural connection between the "problems" of the Carcer of Daleth and the Paths of XII and XVIII respectively.
About 2.57 am: finished the ceremony. While the Seal dries, will read and study; then will put it away with its pair.
P.S. (3.15 am) At a moment, I saw myself enveloped in a globe of gold filigree. There was something else I wanted to write down, but I seem to have forgotten what (though I probably remember it, I don't know what it was that I meant to register here as meaningful. But I think it is some detail that happened and I forgot to set down).
1—The long lapse of time between vision will be noted. The Seer not only was working as an English teacher, but was also negotiating the production of a full-length motion picture. We may speculate that he took so long to resume his experiments because his magickal energy had been exhausted. On this particular occasion, it will be noticed, he decided to try skrying merely because he could not sleep in the heat of a summer night in Rio de Janeiro. "Lazily, hungrily, ardently, patiently . . ." this is written in Liber VII, study of which is obligatory for Neophytes. One's idiosyncratic biorhythm must be observed. Nevertheless, the serious reader should not take the Seer as an example. If you can dedicate your full time to practices, and only to practices, for at least three months, you will advance faster. But the Seer was not in this position at the time. He could not go into a Magickal Retirement, and must do with the time and energy at his disposal. 2—Cf. Equinox, Vol. 1, No. 8, pp. 102-105. 3—Which he did not know by heart, as he should have. . . . A note in the Record reads: "There was noise outside just about then." 4—This happened quite often: the consciousness of the physical body, upon returning, not remembering what the astral consciousness (at whatever stratum) experienced. Nor can we always be sure that the astral consciousness, itself, remembers, even from posterior happenings. A tape recorded, we repeat, should be useful to those who verbalize easily. 5—In Portuguese in the original.
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