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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Tuesday, 24 July 1923
Die Mars
Hail unto Thee, Khephra the Beetle!
(A) Should I accept my instinct about keeping my aura intact as from 93, or refer to LXV, I, 45-46, II, 5, V, 8, &c?
Earth[/Fire]
Nourishment. Seek to fortify the aura: but choose source of Energy with great care.
[Sun/Sun] Fire
(B) Describe Source of Energy, & how to obtain it
Water[/Earth]
Mutual Influence. (Slow flowing of Matter: 3 attracts 10) Thwan: free course & success—‘as in marrying a young lady’. 1. Walk. 2. But not far. 3. Sexual attraction must be strong & spontaneous. 4. Stick to first advice. 5. I invoke True Magical Love. 6. Use tongue.
Summary: ‘Natural Selection’ indicates persons.
(C) What object should be chosen for orgia?
Earth/Moon
‘Small & underdeveloped appearance of plants struggling from earth.’ A flower sucking up Water. Thwan: Q[uer]y? Acquire a clairvoyant. 1. Free mind, etc, from restrictions, i.e. get rid of any pressure from [Heroin]. 2. Suffer fools gladly: (write ‘popular stuff’?) & obtain financial support for 93. 3. Obtain rich wife. At least, avoid others. 4. 5. Use the Elixir of Youth. 6. Protect the rejuvenated self from possible enemies, or results of rashness.
Final Thelema Oracle on this whole matter. VI, II, 3. Implies the vehement conjunction of two star-systems: i.e. a ‘grande passion’.
2.25 a.m. Frater Achad [Charles Stansfeld Jones]: how to deal with him—a letter should be written in the Occult Review & other rubbish heaps which he respects—being a Copyright Hound (See From Crystal Gazing to Crystal Vision)—to challenge his position. Is he a member of the A∴A∴ he boasts about all the time, &c. Point out that he has not complied with the Regulations of 7º = 4o of R.R. et A.C. by publishing a complete statement of his Point-of-View, &c. True, 666 has accepted him: but that only means he has taken advantage of the rule that any man can be 8º = 3o if he dare to claim the Grade. As he in fact did. This leaves a slur on him, as ignorant of intermediate Grades. 666 can only advise him to regularize his position by showing his title to 7º = 4o, &c. Also, we can force a definite public statement from him as to his relations with 666: & make him sign a paper defining those relations as they ought to be.
2.30 p.m. Yesterday I made some remarks to 'Eddie' [Eddie Saayman] which ‘I should have cut my tongue out rather’ than do. My object was to avoid any possibility of any ‘defect of frankness’. The calculation is really too deep to be set down here: but it was made very thoroughly. The point is: we must all be able to say anything whatever without thinking whether it is ‘wise’ or not. But that is an art to acquire: the power of analysing all things without losing synthetic grip.
3.7 p.m. I constantly find myself wondering—on long elaborate statistics!—whether I am not the most passive, most cowardly, most helpless, etc. of all human (or quasi-human) beings. Now I ‘know’ this to be absurd, from the quite universal testimony of my worst detractors: yet find no answer. In vain I search my memory: the voice never varies: it tells me that I am the ‘Limit velocity’ in this respect. My poetry, my philosophy, my life: all prove the same proposition—there must be a fallacy somewhere: but I can’t detect the least sign of a flaw.
3.15 p.m. My plans for L.M.R. [Lesser Magical Retirement]. Write O.P.V. [Norman Mudd] to extend time.
Try Arab Quarter for preliminary ‘nourishment’. Resistance immense. Chess Club: Try to say something nice about Jews. No Jews present.
Maison Doree: Blank.
3.30 p.m. Have been observing in detail the fact that ‘time flies’ when one is happy, less when one is bored. Ask O.P.V. to set out what this means, taking time as a dimension. I.e., make an equation between happiness & misery in such terms as to exclude time. (If he can’t do this sort of thing he must learn: it is No. 1 of his ways of being useful to 93.)
4.44 p.m. I start to prepare Opus I. “The flower sucking up Water’—the Object is to be stated roughly as Energy—spiritual, poetic, sexual, physical: so as to accomplish (later) LXV, V, 7 & generally the aims of the L.M.R.
9.55 p.m. ‘Not a button or feather or mark’, of course. Sui is not to be done to order in a hurry: and 93 is right to insist that I should be ready to wait. Hamman-Lif is the one practical measure to take.
9.59 p.m. Tau under great stress as to the ‘Fascist’ film ‘A moi’. Hooligans attack citizens who do not stand while the ‘Fascist hymn’ is played. I want to go with a .45 & shoot the first man who lays a finger on me. The advantage would be that I should rally all decent men to 93. The only objection is that I am pledged to this ‘preparation’ for writing the Comment. We might, however, get a ‘man of action’ to strike for Freedom against these foul brigands—& by Freedom I mean pretty much what Sir Robert Peel, Disraeli & Gladstone (despite small points of difference) meant. O.P.V. & 666 to stand behind him as his Brains.
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