Charles Stansfeld Jones Diary Entry

Wednesday, 11 January 1911

 

 

 

6:45 P.M.

1 at 9:50 A.M. at Office.

Lunch 1 while talking to my brother C.

Hour 1 while talking to my wife.

12—1 o’c.1 while talking to my barber.

 

I consider the above very bad; but the explanation is that this particular hour was a great “rush” as I had to call at my brother’s Office, go home for lunch, do some shopping for lunch, and back again to eat same, also get shaved, in one hour. I evidently got flurried and lost control a bit. (Note the time when talking to my brother is doubtful, but have included it.) I think I should here note that on Saturday evening, Sunday and Monday I was quite aware of my task practically all the time; even when I made mistakes, they were in almost every case caused through trying too hard. Probably, having got over a difficult bit of conversation successfully, I was seduced into the error. Tuesday and to-day have been rather different. I have lapsed a little in vigilance, but attained a certain subconscious wariness. This makes conversation easier, but is not established enough to make me free from errors. In fact I am not sure if I am not getting more careless.

 

1 at 5:20 P.M. office.

1 at 8:30 P.M. to wife.

1 at 10:00 P.M. Singing.

1 10:50 talking to wife.

Total for day, 9

 

Note. I felt terribly restless all the evening, and had an intense desire to talk freely. Went to a Smoking Concert at 8:45, but left again at10:5, as I could not stand it any longer. I wanted to sing very much, and in fact did join in one song and made slip noted above. I find it very difficult to leave out a word throughout a song, even if singing with others.

 

 

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